Jazzanie's Xanga

I didn't write this

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 22:07:45 GMT

"I wish I could live the life of long tiring nights full of music and no sleep.
Where you live on a moving house for months and see the same faces for days without end.
Fights over nothing, just because you're just tired of seeing each other.
Where yellow paint meets hot pavement and white lines seem to go on forever."

Does this thing work?

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 19:20:07 GMT

Take this to your grave, and I'll take it to mine.

Mon, 30 Jun 2008 22:17:28 GMT

A new entry! Woohoo! Lemme try to make this short.

My life is fine right now. More than fine, maybe. I really want a license. And a car.

You know, it sometimes worries me. Maybe it's just a phase, but damnit I wish I was 18 already. It's not what you think! I really just want my independence. When I was younger, I always looked down on those girls who wanted to grow up so fast. But now I worry maybe I'm turning into one of them. But, I mean, can you blame me?! WTF is the perks of being a 15 year old?! There are none! I'm at that stage where the things I want to do are out of my reach, and it sucks. You know how parents always say "Enjoy being young, these are the best times of your life..."? Well, sure, not having to pay bills is fun & all. But what else is there? Besides not having to take financial responsibility, being a teenager SUCKS.

Right now, I really love some things I have. I wish it could stay the same, just fast forward through the boring parts.

Also, I realized I wish for so many things. Maybe I'm unappreciative :/ Actually, I pretty much am. When did I become such a shitty person?!

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 18:59:41 GMT

Duuude... I haven't posted in forever.

M'kay..

Sat, 15 Sep 2007 01:52:49 GMT

So, as I predicted, I practically abandoned this thing. BUT! I always updated the music lyrics! I finally changed my layout, though, so I don't have that anymore.

Anyways...

WOW. So much has happened. Sorry you missed it Xanga :[

I'm not gonna recap all my summer. But I'll just say that...it was an okay summer, never went anywhere, did a lot of procrastinating... I bought myself a good straightener! Cost me $100 but it was worth it. Paul Mitchell FTW. I finally posted on FOBR boards. Totally addictive. Kinda scary...but I love that place. I went to HCT, it was hella fun&crazy. Almost dehydrated. I was introduced into a LOT of music over this summer. My iPod is now stock-full of a bunch of music I don't really listen to... But there are a couple of bands that have caught my attention and I'm very much enjoying: 1997, Mayday Parade, Flyleaf, The Academy Is..., The Fratellis, MuteMath, The Matches... But I'm just beginning to get into them.

Okay, so that's pretty much my summer. Heat&internet. Yep. Niiiice.

But school started, and I was doing horrible. But I'm starting to get my act together. I signed up for OCK. Yay. I wanna go the the Long Beach date for YWT. Crystal working on convincing her mom ;] It should be a blast! CIWWAF is one of my favorites, PWT's are pretty good, and GCH are okay. EEEK! I wanna win M&G or EE!!

Okay, so enough talking to myself. Well, actually, this blog is about me so whatever.

Alright, so currently, my social life is pretty boring. I'm supposed to be living life as SANTI! But I'm such a gutless coward! Geez, I need to get help or something. Gahhh.

And things have been pretty chaotic. School&home, I mean. But my social life is pretty much dead. Tsk, tsk... I make myself wanna slap a hoe.

I need to get a camera. To start my hair blog, LOL. Blog about hair. Pretty hair. Cuz I like pretty hair :D

RANT:

How could people be stupid enough to get in the care with a driver in a drunken rage?! Anyone with common sense would see the danger in that. They need to teach that at school starting in kindergarten. Some little kids are such fucktards.

Why do the police put people on hold?! Are they just waiting for the line to be cut off? Are they waiting for screaming?? WTF POLICE?! And we don't need your sarcasm&attitude, kay?! The police are supposed to be serving us.

Damn, the world is fucked up. And that's just from the little of it I've actually seen.

Humans are so ignorant.

My first Official blog...

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 04:24:41 GMT

So anyways...

Yeah, so summer vacation is here, and it didn't hit me that it was the end of the school year until the very last day. And I think people exaggerate a little when they're like Ohh, I'm gonna misssss you!!! *hughughughug* because we're really gonna see each other a lot over the summer, unless you're moving, then you have an excuse, cuz you're probably never gonna see these people again. But then again, I understand where they're coming from. If I think about it, I'm probably not gonna see most of them ever again. I won't contact them over the summer and I probably won't have the same classes as them next year. It's a shame, really. A perfect opportunity of a great friendship, completely wasted. But it's kinda my own fault, for being so damn shy.. I had the whole year to make friends, and I only made a couple (and acquaintances don't count).

For the same reason, I feel like this was another school year wasted. I always have these goals like, talk to the guy I like, stop being so shy, make lots of new friends... And I never really reach them. As much as I try to gather the guts to do some things, I just can't. And on the last day of school, I'm feeling so spontaneous, right? And I wanna do something, well, spontaneous. Like, throwing stuff at people and acting crazy. Well, not out-of-control crazy, but out-of-the-ordinary crazy. But no one else wanted to be crazy with me, so I didn't do anything fun. At the end of the day, I had this feeling of regret. A whole year of planning ways to get to know new people, and I never got around to meeting some people I really wanted to meet.

Like, I have this friend that was in one of my classes, and I never talked to him outside of class for some reason. I see him everyday after school, and nothing! Then, on the very last day of school, we were all hanging outside the school because of the senior prank thing, and we passed each other like I-don't-know-how-many-times, and didn't even talk to each other, even though that probably was the last time we'd see each other. Not that it matters so much, we weren't such good friends. We only sat next to each other and new each other's names, talked to each other occasionally. And I'd been wanting to get to know him better; I don't know how many times I'd gone over conversation-starters in my mind. But I didn't talk to him much.

Anyways, I was scoping out the scene or whatever, and he passed by me for like the fifth time, and he actually said Hi to me (outside of class). I didn't even know he was talking to me at first, cuz I wasn't really paying attention since I was looking for other people. But, yeah, that kinda shocked me. He just passed by and said Hi for once. I didn't even get to say anything back, but I think I smiled at least, LOL...

Well, this summer I'm gonna hang out with my friends more often, cuz usually I don't even talk to them over the summer. You know, get out more often. Have lots of fun to make this a memorable summer... I just feel so relieved...to finally have free time! I also wanna get a lot of things done, like my fanfic and this blog. It'll be like a little public diary. I could never really keep a diary...

<333 Jazzy

Edit: Wow, that was a long blog...

Hmm.

Sat, 02 Jun 2007 02:39:23 GMT

I started a blog.

Yay me!!